Prayers please for my daughter R. She went to her GP this afternoon but he sent her to hospital. Bloods taken but still waiting to be seen two hours later. I have had no news for the last three hours. Her daughter( 15 ) is with her. In normal times I would have gone to stay with my grandson (12) so her husband could be with her.
It is her birthday today.( 49)
I can understand that the nurses don't want a patient admitted for optional surgery - having ears adjusted and so forth. But not for such an essential procedure as Rossweisse needs. Would they turn away someone who has just been in a car accident?
Just an update on my daughter R. She spent about 7 hours of her birthday in A&E. She was eventually treated and was home before midnight but will need an operation, though that is unlikely to happen for many months because of the backlog. Today she is unwell from the effects of the morphine given to enable the treatment and will have to take it easy for a while which she will find impossible. Thanks for your prayers.
I need prayer for my bipolar, for a nervous breakdown I've had and can't seem to get out of, and financial stability - I need a new job. Story below if you're interested, but you don't have to read it. Thank you.
It's been a rough 12 months. On top of a full-time day job, I taught 4 classes at the local seminary, my dad died from Alzheimer's (on the eve of Michelmas last year), and I pulled out all the stops to finish, defend, and file my dissertation. Meanwhile, at the day job (where I was a parish administrator), I was dealing with a youth pastor bullying me...and then I had to take on the financial secretary's job when she retired in June (last year). But my job didn't give me any support or training, even after a meeting that was purportedly about figuring out what training I would need. Plus they tried to renege on the small raise I'd been promised, and I had to fight to get that as a "bonus" at the end of the year.
So, while doing all of the above, I was trying to teach myself bookkeeping, how to do bookkeeping in the old software, setting up the financials in the new software, figuring out how to do the bookkeeping (and everything else) in the new software, working with 3 different payroll systems... One of my classes was an elective I designed, which I'd never done before. I also had to learn to teach online (which I did in the winter term alongside the elective which was in person - 2 classes at the same time while also working full-time). Then of course COVID and trying to work from home. I was grateful to be able to do that, as so many people lost their jobs. In June I was able to go back to the office, and was really grateful. I finally figured things out and got caught up with the bookkeeping, but my boss was being really unresponsive and cold. July 31, he laid me off. Wanted to still be friends, because we serve on a diocesan committee together. I've told him that's not possible. He knew I was in trouble with my bipolar, and how much I struggled and how hard I worked, and he went along with the personnel committee's plan to lay me off during a pandemic and replace me with 2 part-time people in order to save money, I imagine. This is my 2nd time being laid off from a church, my 4th time being laid off in my working life. I know that's the story of my people (working-class). But I feel like there's no place for me in the world. I can't work full-time teaching theology - I can't even come close to earning a living doing it, but that is my true vocation. I spent a loooong time and a looooot of money to get the needed degrees to do that. I don't need an extravagant lifestyle - I don't even need a middle-class lifestyle (I'm not clergy, after all). But the $5750 USD I'll be earning over the next academic year (for teaching 3 classes) is not enough to live on.
Physically, I'm really exhausted and weak - I can't do much physical activity at all right now. I have brain fog. I shake, and my heart skips beats. But I can't afford to go to the doctor for any of that now, because I live in the US.
I need a miracle for any of these things. Finding a job will be a miracle. Getting out of this depression will be a miracle. Feeling physically like I can do more than unload a dishwasher will be a miracle. Being able to pray again might also take a miracle.
Praying for you churchgeek 🕯 I have bipolar disorder too and can empathise, the year I was diagnosed my father died and I ended up resigning from my dream job in academia. Hang in there, you are not alone.
Do drop in the Black Dog thread in All Saints, several fellow manic depressives on the board.
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Prayers continuing to ascend, as always.
It is her birthday today.( 49)
And for @Rossweisse.
For Puzzler and R
Asking for prayers for my friend A who had a heart attack this weekend and has been told to prepare for quadruple bypass surgery.
For all in need of prayer
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It's been a rough 12 months. On top of a full-time day job, I taught 4 classes at the local seminary, my dad died from Alzheimer's (on the eve of Michelmas last year), and I pulled out all the stops to finish, defend, and file my dissertation. Meanwhile, at the day job (where I was a parish administrator), I was dealing with a youth pastor bullying me...and then I had to take on the financial secretary's job when she retired in June (last year). But my job didn't give me any support or training, even after a meeting that was purportedly about figuring out what training I would need. Plus they tried to renege on the small raise I'd been promised, and I had to fight to get that as a "bonus" at the end of the year.
So, while doing all of the above, I was trying to teach myself bookkeeping, how to do bookkeeping in the old software, setting up the financials in the new software, figuring out how to do the bookkeeping (and everything else) in the new software, working with 3 different payroll systems... One of my classes was an elective I designed, which I'd never done before. I also had to learn to teach online (which I did in the winter term alongside the elective which was in person - 2 classes at the same time while also working full-time). Then of course COVID and trying to work from home. I was grateful to be able to do that, as so many people lost their jobs. In June I was able to go back to the office, and was really grateful. I finally figured things out and got caught up with the bookkeeping, but my boss was being really unresponsive and cold. July 31, he laid me off. Wanted to still be friends, because we serve on a diocesan committee together. I've told him that's not possible. He knew I was in trouble with my bipolar, and how much I struggled and how hard I worked, and he went along with the personnel committee's plan to lay me off during a pandemic and replace me with 2 part-time people in order to save money, I imagine. This is my 2nd time being laid off from a church, my 4th time being laid off in my working life. I know that's the story of my people (working-class). But I feel like there's no place for me in the world. I can't work full-time teaching theology - I can't even come close to earning a living doing it, but that is my true vocation. I spent a loooong time and a looooot of money to get the needed degrees to do that. I don't need an extravagant lifestyle - I don't even need a middle-class lifestyle (I'm not clergy, after all). But the $5750 USD I'll be earning over the next academic year (for teaching 3 classes) is not enough to live on.
Physically, I'm really exhausted and weak - I can't do much physical activity at all right now. I have brain fog. I shake, and my heart skips beats. But I can't afford to go to the doctor for any of that now, because I live in the US.
I need a miracle for any of these things. Finding a job will be a miracle. Getting out of this depression will be a miracle. Feeling physically like I can do more than unload a dishwasher will be a miracle. Being able to pray again might also take a miracle.
Do drop in the Black Dog thread in All Saints, several fellow manic depressives on the board.
Praying for all!